given this sudden change of situation

Today, the day i was excited for all summer, was definitely far from what I wish it would have been. I saw it as debuing the new me, with my new "real" bestfriends and crew that stood strong for me. JOKE. One of the biggest betrayels ever afflicted upon me changed everything and now, here I am with this new, basically dgaf, view of this year. Dont get to close and I wont get hurt right?.. So, no one will affect me. No changes will surprise me, and im giving up on trusting people to be real with me. Its highschool, thats just to unrealistic. All i want is an apology and an actual sincere conversation, but balls not in my court anymore. and my life as an emotional rollercoaster continues. oh joyyy. In other news, me and austin are better than ever with all this crap happening, I feel like he's the only one who truly cares and understands ME. Through everything he's the only one who has really stayed loyal and shown me how much he truly loves me. Im also going to touch on Tierra and how happy i am she was able to apologize for her part and let me do so for mine and im soooooooo excited to welcome her back into my adventure of a senior year. I hope it all somehow falls into place. we'll see. : /