Normally, I cannot stand being alone. However lately i've almost thrived of silence and comfort and the knowledge I can survive on my own. I know first hand what its like to be thrown out and put down by people who mean the world to you and I am coming to realize that after that first blow, things aren't really ever the same. Keep them at arms length as my daddy put it, never letting someone who betrayed you to have that opportunity to do so again. My drama has practically disappeared and my life has been filled by numerous things to keep me occupied and needed. I am a huge asset to PacSun and am getting more hours than ever, in the two weeks I was excommunicated or whatever I spent more time with my friends than I have this whole year and all of this has led me to ONE conclusion. This is going to be the BEST SUMMER YET! I will only be disappearing for two weeks at the end of July and tend to take advantage of all my new realizations and appreciation for my true friends. I love you guys so much and I cant imagine where i'd be if i had stayed at SC.(: I've been letting others control me and make me feel like I only matter when i'm behind them for so long and now I feel as if i'm completely renewed into a more independent, self-confident, and caring person. And although these are all attributes I have had all along and have been showing for awhile now, I am soooo much more proud of who i've become by myself and the huge impact I hope I have made in many peoples lives. It took quite a decent amount of time but I finally know who I am, 100 %. Thank you to everyone who helped me this year and has stood by me through it all <3
Love and rockets,
Torwhore Kendall <3
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