exciteddd

This summer has been pretty slow and im happy about that. Relaxation and sleep have been my life and now, the partying begins. Tonight I will be going to Johnny Oskam's grad party, an old friend from schs and I can't believe i'm gonna be seeing my old friends. So weird. I dont know if im excited or uncomfortable but it should be fun if the right people are there.. ahhhh
tommorow im going to work from 11 to 3 then a barbeque then ryans grad party.. nothin after that thoughh

love and rockets,
torrie kendall

anticipation

Two more days. I can't believe it! I've been at SanJuan for a full year now and I still feel like im brand new. I still walk the campus feeling like a foreigner and now, i'm realizing this is where I belong. This has by far been the best school year of my life. I was blessed with the chance to completely renew my life and meet all these INCREDIBLE new people who have become some of my best friends. I excelled in academics and sports and now, I get to spend summer with the people I'm proud to call my true friends. I just can't believe it. Im so happpy with my choice and honestly I can barely imagine where my life would be if I had chosen to stay at SC. I know sometimes things were rough and that tensions rose, but thats highschool. Back and forth and dramatic and entertaining. Austin was my consistency and without him none of this happiness would have happened. Thank you everyone for a practically perfect year and thanks to AJ for implenting the idea to switch.

mucho love and rockets,
torrie kendall


extra love and luck on finals to :
turrrrra terrell
chelsea parlett
anorties
zoe nolan
aj bogle
and mr perryman who has rejoined us <3

and the plot thickens

Normally, I cannot stand being alone. However lately i've almost thrived of silence and comfort and the knowledge I can survive on my own. I know first hand what its like to be thrown out and put down by people who mean the world to you and I am coming to realize that after that first blow, things aren't really ever the same. Keep them at arms length as my daddy put it, never letting someone who betrayed you to have that opportunity to do so again. My drama has practically disappeared and my life has been filled by numerous things to keep me occupied and needed. I am a huge asset to PacSun and am getting more hours than ever, in the two weeks I was excommunicated or whatever I spent more time with my friends than I have this whole year and all of this has led me to ONE conclusion. This is going to be the BEST SUMMER YET! I will only be disappearing for two weeks at the end of July and tend to take advantage of all my new realizations and appreciation for my true friends. I love you guys so much and I cant imagine where i'd be if i had stayed at SC.(: I've been letting others control me and make me feel like I only matter when i'm behind them for so long and now I feel as if i'm completely renewed into a more independent, self-confident, and caring person. And although these are all attributes I have had all along and have been showing for awhile now, I am soooo much more proud of who i've become by myself and the huge impact I hope I have made in many peoples lives. It took quite a decent amount of time but I finally know who I am, 100 %. Thank you to everyone who helped me this year and has stood by me through it all <3

Love and rockets,
Torwhore Kendall <3