I told you I believe. I believe in everything.

Life's taken quite a turn for me..I've opened up to everything. I'm done sitting in my wave of the usual and not letting my life take its course, and I feel so incredible. God is guiding me for the first time in a very long time and almost everything, my relationships, my attitude, and the way things are unfolding just seem to be easier and more worthwhile. Basically what im trying to get across from my computer to yours is that, well FINALLY. I've been searching and crawling on my hands and knees hoping for a doorway or a solid path and here it is, when I was a papercut away from breaking down. Thats life for you. Things change, people leave, shit happens but it never pauses for anyone. Day by day, its work and thats never going to change so why try and change it. Time to keep on keeping on and grow into the person I know I have the potential to be. Get readddy woah is on the prowl <3

love and rockets,
WOAH

inspired by my new friend..

For you.

I wish I could express to you all the thoughts and things inside my head, but for some reason I cant seem to find the words when your in front of me. So, this is for you. Our relationship is so messy and complicated and I have no idea how to deal with it and yet, I love us and understand us so well. You love me so much and it scares the crap out of me because I know that you know me better than I or anyone knows myself. You have more power than you could ever imagine and that is all my fault. I let you save me and mold me into who I am now, and I truly believe if you hadn't come along I wouldn't have half the confidence and self-respect that I have now. Your my bodyguard and you keep me safe from the corruption of this world allowing me to stay the little kid I just want to be. The big problem with all this though is that you know how to ruin me. When we fight, it feels like everything is crashing down for me. You have so much power and break me so easily and I don't understand why you take advantage of that sometimes because whenever I see you hurting all I want to do is heal the world so you have nothing to be sad about. We get so caught up in what were fighting about and it's ridiculous cause I am just want to be excited and at home. Baby,we have so much going for us and I know were gonna make it, but we have to get past whatever this is. I need you in my life. Simple, done, that's it. I NEED YOU. My heart beats for you and the way you love me. Your home to me, nothing feels more right. I'll keep giving until I have nothing left and I promise to keeping loving and trusting you until you ask me not to anymore. I love you Austin and thats what it comes down to, that as much as we bicker and argue and whatever else were it. I Love You and that will get us through the bullshit because it's what sets us apart and what makes us real. I thrive on your laughter. I live for our kid moments and I wouldn't trade you in for the world bubs. Your stuck with me.

love and airplanes,
Torcakes (:

Drama

people thrive on it, people are ruined by it, and people can't seem to overcome it. Drama never really rolls over because it will always haunt the people truly affected. So here I am playing little miss psychologist for my girl's because their men are total d-bags. Why can't guys just be CONSISTENT?! If you like a girl like her around your friends, in all circumstances. If you love a girl, love her unconditionally because we sometimes do things that are going to frustrate you because your supposed to just LOVE us. If you don't like a girl, let. her. go. There are plenty other guys out there for us and if you are being a coward because your afriad of the aftermath, please frickin save it because we don't need your pity... ANYWAAAAY

With BabyBreez dealing with dumbboys, she's sleeeping over and its gonna be a blasty blast.<3 All is well in the love life and friend life for me and I am sooo excited for this weekend and everything else. (((:
Tyrone Wells-April 23rd
Into the Woods-April 24th
Prom-May 15th and June 5th
Birthdayy-May 16th
Bamboozle road show-June 4th

love and rockets,
Torrie kendall

once upon a time

In a world of doubt and fear and constant questioning of how to go on living life, there were three types of people. The people who thrived on looking for trouble and mindlessly going on with their lives with no idea how to handle the positive and negative things and emotions they were experiencing. The people who lived their lives in tunnel vision, going down a path of obedience and "truth" deciding to live safe and without risk in order to protect their reputations and well-beings based on what society feels is okay and right. And then the people who decided not to live either life, but just to go, facing what comes upon them with in depth choice based on situation and enviornment. These people were the people truly living, not letting an unhealthy relationship, bad experience, or belittling friends hold them back from fulfilling their potential and also have the capability to cause a little chaos when frustration or temptation took over. And while time pressed on the mindless continued to lose themselves in their "normalcy", the obedient continued to miss out of life because of fear, and the unpredictable continued on with minimal regrets living life their way with pride and happiness. The End.

love and rockets,
torrie kendall <3

Bad Day.

You don't have to believe me but the way I see it. Next time you point a finger I might have to bend it back or break it off. Next time you point a finger, i'll point you to the mirror.
-Torrie

We got more bounce.

Quite a successfull spring break I would say. Got myself a pretty decent base tan for the beach season to come and definitely made this much needed week worth while. I was with Austin and Aj everyday and everyone else who participated in my adventures im so thankful for because there was not ONE disappointing day. Things that were accomplished:
-bought prom dress. !
-got closer to great friends
-ate a sprinkles cupcake
-went to the laguna beach top of the world
-bought a crazy skirt
-got into minimal trouble with the dragon lady
-anddd fell back into real love with my boyfriend.
I think it was a well spent break and i'm so happy for summer now. Everything just seemed to work out and im very optimistic going back to school now..
GLEE ON TUESDAY. <3
-Torrie